Do you know? I dreamed of you again last night. You were as handsome as ever. You were facing away from me and sat in the position where we often sat in the cafe we ​​often go to. I walked straight towards that position when I saw you. I stood there for a long time. Then you turned around and saw me and you smiled at me. I mustered up the courage to try to approach you, but I never walked into that position. I watched you close at hand, but it was difficult to get close, and finally until you disappeared.

I suddenly woke up, opened my eyes, it was pitch black and quiet, I let it go for a few seconds, and then finally realized the fact that you had left me. Yes, I had left.

It is said that the person I dreamed of in my dream is because I feel so far away in my heart that I want to see you again in my dream. However, in my dream you are so far away from me, and I can't get close to you.

Maybe I am telling me in this way that if I separate, don’t hold hope, but in reality, I can’t.

When we were together, all the friends around us knew that loving you was something they knew. Later, they separated, and only a few people knew, but no one knew that I still loved you. This is the secret of me alone.

Later on, I was single. Sometimes my friends joked, "Didn't you forget him yet?" I said, "How is it possible, I have long forgotten the person I can hold up and put down like this." The answer was so straightforward that they all believed it, and even I almost believed it.

But why did I feel shocked when I hear your name, why did I feel uncomfortable when I think of you inadvertently, why did I see a back similar to you on the street and my heart missed for a second, why did I always fall into my dreams, and why did I have no feelings for the boys around me later? Until today, you are still my reason for rejecting others. I am not waiting for you, but I still can't like others.

I will secretly run to your space because WeChat was not so popular when I was together. At that time, I would ask you to make a couple’s avatar, associate a QQ number, set it up as a couple’s space, and leave messages in your space when I have time. Later, our QQ is no longer related, and you also changed your avatar, changed your space and cleared all messages. I sneaked in and walked around, and then silently deleted the access record. I wanted to know your news, but I was afraid that you knew I was still thinking about it.

Will you secretly run to your city, and walk around the path we often walk through, breathing the air of this city and blowing the same wind as you, is it considered embracing each other?

I will also travel around with my bag alone. I remember telling you a lot of places I want to go. You always say that when we have money, you will go wherever you want to go. You always say that when we have the opportunity, you will go to many places. But until we parted, I still haven't been to any place. I walked around and stopped alone, and saw the scenery I mentioned together, and where are you?

I spent three years together and never forget it. The memories are longer than the experience. Should I say that I am too infatuated or too unthinkable?

In fact, sometimes our hearts are far less chic than the surface. We can just turn around and how can we fill the gap in our hearts? I have been hiding the days after we left, and I have loved you for a long time without everyone. I think this should be the price of my breakup. But the three years to repay are enough, and I just want to live for myself.

I used to hope that you would come, but I would suddenly stand in front of me, call me to go downstairs to surprise me, and say softly, "Don't come, okay?" But now I don't want it anymore, so those emotions that have nowhere to be placed will return to their own positions. Don't come, I'm fine alone.

People say that falling in love with a city is because the people you love live in. Love the house and the black is self-evident. Such a person will appear in everyone's life. Even if his face is covered with dust and his hair is as frost as he wants to be with him until the end of the year. I firmly believe that this picture has been carefully described by countless people because it is the most beautiful love meeting that people long for. This romantic "pattern" is also a simple life portrayed by the pure feelings wrapped in warmth and sincerity.

The most ideal love in the world is of course two people who are united and support each other for a lifetime. By passing by, they can only say that they have deep love and shallow relationships. Letting go may give people a feeling of being sad and beautiful, and it sounds quite cold, but no one can deny that it is not because of love.

What is love? I can only say it is a feeling of selflessness, a feeling of joy, which reflects the perfect purity of love. "When you meet someone, you will choose a city to live in your old age." Everyone will meet such a worldly fate and wait for this warmth from now on. But life is not as smooth as you think, and love has a fate that is difficult to disobey.

Although in the years of love, everyone wants to stay away from the days of bitterness, everyone wants to say goodbye to the heart-wrenching breakup, and everyone likes to let the sunshine of love be filled with empty hearts.

But love is sometimes so incredible. Some people flee to each other, and the zither and zither are harmonious, but they cannot escape the details of life, resulting in the exhaustion of love and love ending without success. Even if some people are heartbroken, they still go left and right in the end. Some people are stumbling and breaking up and down, and are repeatedly tossed by the so-called love, and have been scrambling for decades, and even sang all the songs of separation, but still remain unchanged. Who can say that this is not because of love?

No matter what kind of love you meet in this life, no matter whether you love or be loved, you can meet each other, it is the destined fate of God. Being attracted to someone, you will first look at it. Once love turns each other into a careful tearing, and care becomes a bondage and hurt each other, letting go may be the wisest choice. Love has never been worthy, but it is only suitable or not.

When loving someone, you should first make him or her happy. For a relationship, being able to warm each other's hearts is the most important thing, and it is the most rare to remember the beauty of the past. Some people have long said that love is not demand or possession. Love is giving, dedication, and fulfillment.

I have always liked the old song "There is a kind of love called letting go", and Amu sang in his hoarse tone: There is a kind of love called letting go, ending for love forever, if my departure is all, let true love take me away and say break up...

This chorus that makes the listener heart-wrenching, and every time I recall it, my heart will always feel trembling and touching that I can't be myself...

All things in the world can generally be explained clearly. Only love cannot be explained. Some love is only understood by oneself. Some behaviors are understood by oneself. Perhaps some people's love is the beginning of a brief joy and then deep love. Many people have probably experienced this feeling.

Maybe he (she) never tells you what it feels like to fall in love with you. He doesn’t want to tell you that your appearance has eliminated all the confusion about love before. He (she) has been the only existence similar to light in the abyss of life. He (she) especially doesn’t want to let you know that at some time, you are in the city, and he (she) is outside the city, just passing by here with blessings.

A famous person said that he did not understand life without frustration. He did not understand love without breaking up.

Love is like a performance without a role, without lines, without rehearsals, the people who love each other are the protagonists. We know very well that falling in love is a matter of one person. Love is a matter of two people. Love or not, deep love or shallow love is one's own business. Whether to cherish or not, whether to let go depends on how much love is to the other person.

Sometimes letting go does not mean not loving, but rather a manifestation of deep love. Just like what is sung in the song:

If you yearn for the sky, long for a pair of wings, let go and let you fly, your wings should not be accompanied by roses, obey the withered time. If romance becomes a ties, I would like to choose to return to loneliness for you. If lingering becomes a chain, let go of your promise...

This kind of sorrow and love let go is to restore the other person's freedom, to fulfill the person you fall in love, and to do what he (she) wants to do. He does not want to love someone, which will cause that person to lose himself. In "Ode to Joy 2", Qu Xiaoxiao also said that letting go is to not want to change the original intention of falling in love.

Let go and stop disturbing. Even if you can't help but miss it, you must hold back. Even if you come to his (her) city with blessings, you will pass around the city. Just stand in a distant country and make deep blessings.

I like loneliness, don’t talk to anyone, and do what I like peacefully in a quiet state. Let my body and mind wander, temporarily forget the tediousness of "first, rice, oil, salt, sauce, vinegar and tea", and experience the elegance of "key, chess, calligraphy, painting, poetry, wine and flowers"; temporarily put aside the busy rush of pursuing fame and fortune, and feel the tranquility and indifference of mind without distractions; temporarily get rid of the joys, anger, sorrow and joy that plagues you, and experience the fulfillment and peace of life.

Therefore, experiencing loneliness and feeling loneliness is the best leisure. The body can rest in loneliness, heavy physical strength and excessive labor make the body need to have a timely loneliness to recuperate. The mind can find a rare tranquility in loneliness, no longer worry about the intrigue and deceitful struggles in life, no longer be depressed by the burden of daily life, but find a suitable way to adjust your mood in loneliness, so that your mood has a unique enjoyment in loneliness.

The highest level of loneliness is to create in loneliness, or to read the past and present, write the voice of the heart, and all kinds of flowers and plants. More lonely happiness, less waste of inaction, let life be spent in creative loneliness, and every minute and every second of the time of life will not be wasted. If you have everything about yourself in loneliness, you will feel that you are not lonely at all. So, you will understand that the person who can truly have loneliness is the happiest person in the world.

Yes, this is how I enjoy loneliness. Because I am just the most inconspicuous grass in the world. Quietness is my posture, lightness is my state of mind, and loneliness is my enjoyment.
Chapter completed!