PART30 Understand myself

Some time, when you don't want to experience it, will take an extremely long time. But those times that you think are wonderful always fly by. No matter how the world changes, will the only thing that remains unchanged be you?

--"Inscription"

From learning to expect, to struggling, to finally surrendering, it only took me one summer vacation.

The moment the college entrance examination ends, I no longer look forward to it.

During the time when I was filling in my application form, I struggled desperately.

The moment the train arrived at the station, I learned to surrender.

The college entrance examination can indeed change a person's life, because no matter what the outcome is, your character will change more or less...

No matter how calm a person is, there will be moments when he is not calm. What's more, there are not many mature and steady people in this world.

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2019 09 02 7:00am.

"Are you Zhu XX, level 19? I am the sophomore senior sister responsible for receiving you. Please..."

"Um...thank you."

The moment I saw the front of the school, I was immediately attracted by the big red gantry at the door——

"XX University welcomes all new students"

"..." I felt very complicated in my heart.

"This is the liberal arts building, this is the library, behind is the comprehensive building, and going forward is the dormitory building..." The senior sister talked a lot, but I didn't seem to listen...

My mother, on the other hand, listened very carefully and bubbled up from time to time——

"Which apartments in your school are newer and have more complete facilities?"

"...Apartment Seven, the latest one built."

"Will it be very cold here in winter? Are there complete heating facilities?"

"...Every room here is equipped with heating in winter."

"Is the winter and summer vacation here early? When can we usually take vacation?"

"...Winter holidays usually start very early because it can be very cold in winter."

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"Okay, I will send it here. You will need to buy daily necessities later." After sending us to the dormitory, the sophomore girl left.

"...Let's get to work." My parents started to help me make the bed.

After a while, we finished all the hygiene and other things, and then went downstairs to go shopping in the supermarket.

After others' guidance, we set off to a certain wholesale market near the school...

Basins, buckets, hot water bottles, hangers, desk lamps, plugs, small clips, glue, sticky hooks...

"...Is it almost done?" I glanced at the dazzling array of things.

"If you think about it again, what else is missing?" Mom was still looking around.

"Hmm..." I said casually, "Winter clothes?"

"Oh oh oh yes, there are clothes and shoes..." Mom pulled me straight to the mall.

"..." I really woke up the dreamer←_←

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"This woolen jacket must..."

"Emmmm, I need to prepare a few pairs of these deep boots..."

"Let's buy some more long-sleeved clothes for winter..."

"..." How come my mother, who usually loves money so much, doesn't care about money at all now⊙▽⊙?

(ΩДΩ) flag falls too fast like a tornado...

"...That's almost enough. Why buy so many? I don't know how many winters it will last." I quickly reminded her.

"You will regret it then! The winter here may be very cold! If we don't prepare a few more clothes for you now, when we go back, you won't know how to add clothes at any time, don't know how to take care of yourself, are you going to freeze to death?

"My mother is very venomous.

"...Oh." Let her mess around as she pleases.

However, she reminded me that sooner or later, they will return to Guangdong, and I will be alone...

Although I hate to admit it, this is reality after all.

Suddenly I remembered that although we had gone to shopping malls together many times in the past, there was never a time when it was not for my dear brother...

Only this time, it's just for me.

Happiness...can't it only be found at the end?

But it's always so short.

In the past, I never dared to hope that they would care about me, even a little bit. Because expectation is the root of all misfortunes. I was afraid of being disappointed, so I didn't dare to expect.

Because in the eyes of parents, their daughters are sensible enough and do not need them to worry. Therefore, there is a lot less concern.

But why, it’s almost the last moment, it’s almost time to say goodbye, and I start to feel a little reluctant to leave...

Haven't I already been used to living alone...
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