If she was selfish, she naturally didn't want to be such a selfish person. After all, she didn't want to delay him because of this incident and let him marry a woman who was already broken.

What he is most grateful for is that he healed his wounds and healed the wounds on his face. But, at the first sight, he had already identified himself in his heart. If this thing had not happened, he would definitely have done this.

He can't speak or speak out.

After all, he is basically a person who is not good at words, so how can he be outspoken?

Regarding this matter, the person who is struggling with it is himself. He is not only responsible for all the rumors, but also him. In this matter, he has dragged him down, but he has to go with him. All this is completely meaningless.

The way back.

I don't know why, when he said those words, he was as throbbing as when he was first in love...

All betrayals should not expose all the thoughts that should not exist at this moment.

"I never force this matter on others. However, since this matter has happened and your father and my father are already together, you should naturally know about this matter. And I said this just to make myself feel at ease. It's just that.

Because I have openly told you my heart, naturally I don't care about anything else. As for marrying you, it may not be possible in this life."

If she had never married, no matter whether it happened or not, she would probably have made an engagement. But now, how could he be a bad person and ask her to abandon her feelings about this matter.

Instead of doing this, it is better to tell your true feelings, which is also like hiding it in your heart.

And what she said was correct, how could she do such a selfish thing because of this incident.

"Maybe, it's possible."

After hearing this, Xiao Yanlu suddenly didn't dare to believe what she said. He didn't know the intention of what she said?

I just felt that what she said was fair, but she was confused by it.

"What do you mean?"

"Do you know why my father is so anxious to settle on this marriage?" When she asked this question, she couldn't help but smile sarcastically at herself. After all, he didn't know what happened or what was involved.

How could he know the whole reason just by asking him?

A bitter smile rose from the corner of her mouth, and she gently pushed away from his arms. The slightly cold wind was blowing the hair on her forehead. It came from the eloquent words: "Just because you know

It's a matter between you and me, and because he simply doesn't recognize my marriage to Cui Hao. If my cousin hadn't agreed to this marriage, I'm afraid I would have eloped with him that day. Now that I think about it, if I hadn't already

When I return to Xuandu, I think not many things will happen."

Didn’t return to Xuandu?

Everything that happened to her will naturally not happen to her, and he will not meet her. In this life, he will not get to know her.

But all this is completely fruitless.

Once encountered, a lifetime of mistakes will be made.

He wanted to reach out and touch her hair, gently brushing away the messy hair, but he still hesitated and stopped his hand. After all, she was someone he couldn't touch, so naturally he didn't dare to touch her at will.

Naturally, I had no choice but to watch it silently.

Standing quietly aside, listening to everything she said.

"Actually, my fate with him has long since ended. It's just that I haven't dared to admit it or face it."

She just didn't know that in this lost state of mind, someone suddenly appeared who still loved her deeply. And she was obviously moved by the words he said, but she kept warning herself not to be moved by them.

She didn't want to let him down or let him down with this love.

But unfortunately, regarding the incident with Cui Hao, I was already filled with barriers towards him, and the gap in my heart gradually widened. But with his appearance, it seemed that for some reason the heart gate could still accommodate him. In my most urgent situation,

The only person I wanted to tell everything to was Xiao Yanlu.

In fact, this is just deceiving myself. I don't have any entanglements about these at all. But the person I want in my heart doesn't seem to be Cui Hao.

This marriage seems to be just a wrong choice after all. It cannot be taken seriously, nor can it be loved deeply. After all, the injured person is you after all. How can others truly feel it?

"But I didn't tell you that I wanted to steal the military power that the late emperor left with my cousin, and that man was Concubine Shu's brother. But they didn't know that I almost lost my virginity that night. In those few days

, everyone said that my reputation was ruined, but they didn’t know that all this was the conspiracy of that person. They deliberately made themselves think that he had raped me, but they never thought that it was Cui Hao. At that time, I thought that I could

Spending a lifetime with Cui Hao, I never expected..." When he talked about this, he gradually realized that he knew everything in front of him and said everything. But when he mentioned what happened that night, his mind

The image of Cui Hao talking about having sex with that person kept popping up. Now that I think about it, it's not disgust, but hatred.

I have never treated them badly in any way, but they are the ones who want to hurt me, and they have completely disgraced the Su family. Now that I am not in the house, they must be having fun.

He raised his eyes and looked up at the starry sky, but his eyes were so sad and worried. Only he knew the pain in his heart. But he said it as if nothing had happened: "One night, he betrayed me. But I was too afraid to expose him.

Instead, he chose to escape. But when he learned about my relationship with you, it was not out of concern but to question. From that moment on, I had already given up on him. By rejecting you, I just didn’t want to treat this marriage as a child’s play.

I don't want to be afraid that if I really get separated from him, I'm afraid that the world will laugh at me and the Su family will suffer."

"Uncle Su and my father don't care, and neither do I."

If he hadn't heard her tell her secrets, she wouldn't have known that there had been a gap between the two of them, and that Cui Hao was actually living with someone else. No wonder she could either accept or not accept herself. It turned out that there were many things in her heart.

Everything was entangled. But I was just filled with joy when I heard that the marriage was decided. But when I thought about it, she was already a married woman, so naturally I couldn't have any thoughts of stealing in it.

Now, the more she wants to be separated from him, the more naturally she must not take advantage of others, which will eventually cast a shadow on her.

However, his hands could not control his behavior. He held her hand tenderly and comforted her softly: "He is not worth your efforts at all. It is not worth spending your whole life with him."

Not worth it?

At first, I thought it was worth spending my life, but now it is really not worth it.

The corner of his mouth raised in a sad smile, and he chuckled disdainfully: "If I tell you all this, will you have the courage to get me? After all, I will still be alone after all."

When he told him all this, he wanted to get closer to him more than before, without being as far away from him as before. Just because he knew that there was no possibility for him and Cui Hao. Naturally, the relationship between him and Cui Hao was different.

Distance no longer exists.

get?

If he didn't know, he wouldn't have any urgent desire to get it. No matter what, he naturally said it, and he would have no more desires and cut off everything.

There was only deep affection in his eyes, but he didn't dare to have the slightest feeling of deep affection. After all, he had not yet made a life-and-death promise to her.

"Actually, there are some things that are stuck in my heart, so it would be better to say them out, which will make my heart calmer."

"What you said is deliberately avoiding what I asked you, isn't it?"

His words were simply avoiding him, and he did not want to say them out at all.

A faint smile appeared at the corner of his mouth involuntarily: "Xiao Yanlu, everything you said is so sincere. If I reject you, will you continue to wait?"

There was a trace of expectation in her eyes, wanting to get the words that she wanted to hear most from his mouth.

She had never wanted to hear everything reflected in her eyes so urgently.

"No matter how many years it takes, I will wait for you to let go of your grudges."

Xiao Yanlu had been staring into her eyes, and he could naturally see the expectant look in her eyes. Of course, what he said was also what he thought in his heart, and there was no falsehood at all.

Lowering her eyes and looking at the hands that were holding her tightly, she never refused her approach from the beginning to the end. It seemed that in her heart, there was a moment of throbbing in her heart.

This throbbing seemed to have something else going on in her heart.

"After all, I am just an imperial physician in the palace, how can I look at other women?"

As he said these words, he couldn't help but secretly smile. Although he was an imperial physician, he naturally had no intention of prying. After all, he was the imperial physician for his cousin and his sister-in-law, so naturally everything had to follow the rules.

But when she saw how close she was to him, she let go of her hand and said with a forced smile, "Are we too close now?"

close?

Seeing this, Xiao Yanlu smiled awkwardly.

"If I say, divorce him and marry me, will you still be willing to marry me?" When these words came out together, but when he saw her blank eyes, he explained it very much. "But you can rest assured, I will naturally

There won't be any grudges."

A grudge?

There are some things that cannot be achieved with just one word. Basically, there is no guarantee.

The corner of his mouth resolutely raised a hint of ridiculous ridicule, and he slowly said: "That's what he said at the beginning, but that night he said the words that he had not heard for a long time, and then I realized that in his heart I was so important.

She was so disgusted."

He didn't care at all about this. The person he loved was her, not some indisputable facts about her.

Holding her body tightly, giving her the most fragile heart. His hands resolutely comforted her back, but at that moment he couldn't help but kiss her.

Looking at her face, I couldn't control my heart...

In that sudden kiss, Su Xiaoman didn't have any precautions at all and just let him do whatever he wanted. At that moment, she was actually enjoying it all. She fell deeply into it and couldn't extricate herself.

Only then did she realize that she so desperately wanted someone to love her.

"Xiao Yanlu, do you dare to want me?"

"you..."

Seeing his puzzled eyes, she smiled and continued to ask, "Then let me ask you, do you love me?"

"like."

"Tonight, I, Su Xiaoman, am yours."

She had already thought clearly, of course Cui Hao had betrayed her, and she no longer had any dealings with him. How could she not give her body to someone who could protect her for the rest of her life, but completely waste it on someone who didn't care about her at all?

What's more, since he loves me, why doesn't he give it to me?
Chapter completed!