I don't know who I am. Even the concept of name did not exist at the beginning. My only consciousness is survival. This is an instinctive consciousness.

However, as time goes by, I understand many truths independently, and these things are like they exist in the bloodline or in the soul. They are only gradually revealed over time.

I easily understood all the secrets of this world, energy, matter, time and space, and these only existences except me, were easily controlled by me. Although there was no reference, I could still feel that I was extremely powerful. Well, at this time I had already understood the definition of power. Because in my unknown memory, there are countless information about living beings. Compared with me, they are extremely weak.

However, the information contained in me seems to be endless. As time goes by, I understand more and more. I begin to understand some more profound concepts, such as origin, and essence.

I know all the secrets of this world, but I don’t know what the world was like before. This means I don’t know how the world was born. When I came up with this concept, I understood one thing, I thought I knew everything about the world. But I actually don’t know the essence of the world.

I don’t know why, whenever I think about the origin of the world, I always feel a sense of fear. It seems that there is something bad hidden behind this. But the desire for knowledge still prompts me to try to untie that secret.

I walked all over the world and carefully experienced the differences. Until one day, I felt the boundary. The edge of the world. Yes, I found the edge of the world.

At this time, I was facing an extremely difficult question. The answer was in front of me. But I couldn't take that step easily. The reason was very simple. I am everything in this world. Here I can do everything. But outside this boundary, I will face the unknown.

I had the concept of fear a long time ago. Although I could not feel real fear in this world, when I think of things outside the boundaries, I didn’t understand it. I felt an inexplicable fear. Among my inexplicable knowledge, I knew that this was the fear of the unknown by living beings.

In the face of the desire for knowledge and the fear of unknowns, I hesitated for a long time. I was tired of this repetitive life. I expected that some unknown would impact my cognition. But that inexplicable fear dominated me and prevented me from taking substantial actions.

Until one day, a second life was born in this world. This made me ecstatic. Most of the lives in my memory were in groups. They would create a connection called bloodline or emotionality between them. This is something that I can't understand. Because I can manipulate unimaginable energy. But I cannot create a life out of thin air.

It's strange, but that's the truth. I should be able to do it in theory. But I can't do it because I don't have a 'sample'. I once tried to use myself as a sample. But it was not successful. Of course I was mentally prepared. Because based on my speculation, I could not create an existence of the same level as me. And as the first life in this world, I have uniqueness and cannot be used as a sample.

There are countless samples of life in my memory. But none of them are suitable. Some parts of them are always incompatible with this universe. And without samples, I cannot solve this inconvenience.

But now it's different. A brand new life was born. Due to some gradual rule, this new life is weaker than me. But I am very happy to have a companion. In order to keep him by my side forever, I made up a set of statements. I told him that I created it. I am his father.

As a newborn life, he obeyed my words. I also used him as a sample to create many similar lives. This time it became more convinced that I was his father. But I had a worry in my heart. Because I knew that he was like me, a life born in this universe. So there was a very likely memory in his body that was similar to mine. One day, it would have some kind of breakthrough. Understanding that all this is a clumsy lie.

But I was relieved of this matter later. Because I had decided that I would go behind the wall. During the period when he was born, I had already experienced the kind of things that I lack the most, emotions. I felt that I had nothing to ask for. All that was left was exploration of the unknown.

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I can't remember what happened. Or those memories are in my mind. But I can't understand, and I can't express it. I remember that I broke through the "boundary". I saw unprecedented scenes, and then... the only feeling that can be expressed is fear, endless fear.

I dare not tell "him" about this. I can only understand this information silently alone. As time goes by, I actually understand some of the information. And it is this information that completes my doubts. I, he, and even the birth of this world, are just an accident...

I can't accept this fact. I am so powerful that I can hardly do anything in this world. But it doesn't make any sense. Because the whole world is just a bubble between illusion and reality. And I am just a reflection in this bubble. Haha, everything is just a dream of ‘it’. This is really a desperate answer.

I have changed, becoming more indifferent and withdrawn. All my children have become more awe of me. Only ‘he’, and his eyes began to become a little strange when he looked at me.

I know he must have started to remember something. But I no longer care about this. The only thing I think about now is to get out of this bubble. I want to be the real 'self'.

At this time, more lives had evolved into the world. But there seemed to be a little accident. It was because of me. Because I broke the boundary. A wisp of its power penetrated in. All the holes were infected with some deep-seated infection. Those born lives were different from what I expected.

By my standards, they are ugly, chaotic, and have no complete thinking. I know that this is because those lives cannot control its power at all. They are twisted and deformed into various chaotic and disorderly creatures. I don't like these creatures, so I isolated them. Together with that break, it is completely closed into a small world.

More lives were born. These lives were closer to me. They were weak, but more rational. I liked them. Soon they developed their own civilization. The birth of civilization caused the world to develop rapidly. Human beings began to expose the darkness in their bones.

War, endless war. I can't imagine. My favorite life turned out to be like this. What they are best at is killing their own tribes. They have developed tens of thousands of weapons to kill each other. In all the lives I have seen, and even those lives in my memory, there is no one that can compare to this life that I named human beings, and is more keen on killing their tribes.

I was disappointed with them. But as the first life in the world, I thought I had the obligation to educate them. So I started walking on earth. At the same time, my children, and him, were also doing this together.

I occasionally show my power in the human world. Because humans are stubborn creatures, without interests and power, you can hardly guide them. So many times, I have to use my own power to shock them.

As time goes by, my voice begins to spread on earth. A group of believers appeared, and they formed a church to spread my thoughts. They achieved considerable results. I am extremely satisfied with this. By the way, in the process, humans gave us a name, they called me God, and called my children an angel. The place where we live is called heaven.

Of course he is different. He gave himself a name, Lucifer, a long time ago.

However, this situation did not last long, and soon I could not continue to walk on earth.

After losing my trace, the church grew rapidly. It expanded countless times in just a few hundred years. In the end, it spread throughout all corners of the world. The church became a behemoth that could influence the world. But sadly, among the top leaders of those churches, I could no longer feel a truly devout believer. They became a group of speculators. With the help of my name, they seek benefits for themselves.

At that time, I finally understood why when I walked on earth, the church could only develop slowly in a difficult posture. But when I left, it began to expand irresistibly. Human beings did not want me to exist at all. Or the strong people among human beings did not want me to exist. They hoped that they would have everything, rights, wealth, war, and life. When I did not exist, they could play my role and experience the feeling of becoming God.

So when I left, they knew that the opportunity had come. For them, a "God" who had a name but would never appear again was the best "God". They took my name and realized their ambitions. This made me feel disappointed and painful. I once thought about punishing them, which was very simple. Even if I was in heaven, I could easily punish those speculators. But in the end I gave up. Because I decided to apply the last power to the place where I needed it most.

This is also the reason why I can't continue walking on earth. To put it simply, I'm almost dying.

That transcends the boundary and costs me a huge price. Even I don't understand why I did that at that time. But I did it, I touched its body and took away one of the most basic units on it. It had no effect on it at all. But to me, it was a fatal curse.

I thought that only this would not really hurt me. And I could start from here and understand it in depth. But I miscalculated it. If we use some language of human society to describe this situation, it is probably that no matter how strong a character in a movie is, it is impossible for a little boy in front of the TV. Because the characters in the movie are illusory, and the little boy is real. He just needs to gently pour the juice in his hand like a TV to easily destroy everyone in the movie. This is the difference between illusory and reality.

And I am the omnipotent character in the movie, and the most basic organization is the little boy in front of the TV. It looks fragile, but to me, it is an existence that is one order of magnitude higher. I can do nothing about it at all. But it can affect me in turn.

My body has begun to change. An inexplicable whisper has begun to appear in my mind. In this world, my power is still very objective. So I can resist that kind of bewitching to a large extent. But that's all. I can't reverse its twist on my body. I changed and began to move closer to the monsters I hate the most.

The most unfortunate thing is that this scene was seen by Lucifer. I know Lucifer had awakened a long time ago. He knew how he came from and knew my relationship with it. But he didn't say it out loud, because I knew that he had regarded me as his real father. But my unsightly image obviously stimulated him.

I knew he went to Purgatory, which was where I was isolated from the chaotic creatures. Although I didn't cross the border, I still learned enough information. Then his eyes became even more strange when he looked at me. I knew what he was thinking. He thought I was a person who lost himself for his strength.

I didn't explain, I knew what kind of person Lucifer was. But this road was too dangerous. With his personality, once he knew the truth, he would definitely keep up with me at all costs. But in my opinion, it was not yet time. I could hold on for a while, at least let me pave the way for him.

‘It’ is gradually infecting me deeply. I tried my best to maintain my independent thinking. The consequence of doing so is that I cannot suppress my physical changes. Soon I will no longer be able to appear in front of my children. I hid in purgatory, used my last sense of independence to try to analyze it.

A variable appeared. I foreseeed it. In this world, I could see everything. I saw a life that did not belong to this world suddenly appeared. I knew that there were other worlds beyond the world. There were also many scenes about other worlds in my memory. But they were all swallowed up by ‘it’ in the end.

But this life is different. He has an extremely special aura. Even if he is in this world and creates my home court, I still cannot see through it. This is very strange, because in this world, and even outside the world, the only thing I can't see through is "it". Now there is another one.
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