It's late at night, and on the eighth night of my arrival here, I am now writing a diary.

Just the day before yesterday, I was still feeling my future, and then I said goodbye to the past in my heart.

Now it seems that my behavior is really extremely childish and naive! Yes, very childish and very naive!

How could such a good thing happen? I knew there would be trouble. Well, I actually didn't see anything wrong. It seems that I guess that the doubts and that are not based on it.

Of course, these are no longer important to me and now. Every time I think about it, I can always reject some of the behaviors and understandings I have defined. I don’t know whether this is the advantage or the disadvantage.

In short, people must move forward!

Well, this is indeed my motto. To be precise, it is the motto that I was able to move forward optimistically and positively in my heart in the past twenty years since I was here.

Now, it's also pretty good.

I don’t want to change either. It’s not that I don’t want to move forward. What I don’t want to change is the normal knowledge education and moral belief that I have received in that world!

Because, the day before yesterday, my behavior of putting aside everything and cutting off all rebirth is now rejected by me! I don’t think I can become that person, even if I know that I will survive better or get better in this world.

After all, the prerequisite for integrating into a strange environment is to melt yourself first! Maybe this change will be very fast, for example, like the decision I made the day before yesterday, or maybe it is very slow, for example, I have overturned the idea the day before yesterday.

Maybe I am a very fickle person, without a stable and long-term idea, and I can't stick to the decisions I make every time. Maybe in other words, I'm not confident enough.

But this is me. For example, the dwarf asked me to apologize today. It was nothing more than just a matter of sorry. I didn't do that, so I realized later that this was not good. When the dwarf finished the train and I was about to apologize, I couldn't say anything.

Moreover, the dwarf even bowed and kept muttering to Li Town Committee. It was my fault, please forgive me and other apology.

I felt very uncomfortable, embarrassed, and inexplicably guilty. I don’t know where this feeling comes from. I feel that I am not a Virgin and will not accumulate it in my heart because of an apology.

Thinking about it now, my inexplicable guilt is, my parents!

For more than 20 years, I have never given anything back to my parents, so it is really difficult for me to let go of this time travel in my heart!

How can I let go if you tell me! I don’t want to be there, I’m thinking about anything. It’s meaningless to think too much. Reality has already happened, so I can’t look back.

But this is not a behavior that I do today that can be understood correctly and in my heart! I cannot use this as a basis to defend myself and enlighten myself!

Alas... the more I write, the more annoyed I feel... the more my mind hurts.

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I put down my pen and stopped writing a diary because of a headache. I lay in bed and wanted to fall asleep by myself.

But, helplessly, I couldn't sleep.

After tossing and turning, I got up again and continued to write a diary.

At least, you should write down the connotations in your heart now. You don’t want to be able to figure them out or figure them out because of this. You just want to write them all today to make yourself feel at ease and fall asleep peacefully, and you don’t have to wake up from your sleep in the middle of the night.

Yes, I have never slept peacefully these days, except for yesterday when I was too tired and couldn't bear it anymore. I've been sleeping hard these days.

I have a very bad sleep. Sometimes, I dreamed that I was even confused and felt that I was still working, and I felt like I had returned to the small room where my family lived before, and felt that my parents were still by my side.

However, when I realized that something was wrong, I suddenly woke up, but there was nothing, just a dream.

Then, I couldn't get sleepy until my body couldn't bear it anymore, and then I fell into a sleep again. Then, I woke up from my sleep again and again. It was like this, it's been eight days since I first came...

Forget it, these are nothing important. After writing this, my thoughts are not as impatient as before. I was upset and stopped in my heart. I was like I was suffering from persecution and paranoia. I don’t know if my current situation is right. After all, I am not a doctor or a psychologist.

By the way, what are I writing here? Forget it, it doesn’t matter what I write anymore. Just write a diary, just write it casually. Anyway, don’t go to elementary school like before, and you have to hand it over to the teacher as homework.

By the way, the teacher in the past seemed to have the surname Wang, and he was still a very domineering person............

OK OK, the table there now shows that it is already two o'clock in the morning, of course, it is the time here.

The time division here is actually similar to the time on Earth, and even this table and clock are no different.

But as for why the watch I saw was almost no distinction between the rotation I had seen before, I didn't care.

No matter how different the time in this world is from the earth, it tells me one thing that it is time for me to go to bed.

Okay, I have already written this diary for almost ten pages before I knew it. I will summarize today's diary at the end.

No matter what the future is, no matter what the world is like, no matter what good or bad ideas others have about you, no matter what kind of result you will be in the future.

Maybe I will give up on my personality in the future, change my bottom line or something else, etc.

I hope, no, no! It's certain!

You must never forget your past! Forget everything you have and forget your roots! Forgetting yourself does not mean rebirth!!!

I wrote this passage not because of anything else, but because I can’t forget! I can’t forget everything I once had, I can’t leave my parents behind, and everything I have in that world, whether it’s good or bad!

This is not my brain deficiency, my psychopathy, my Madonna, indecisiveness, or mdzz or something.

Just because I am a normal person, not a lunatic!!!

Well, I won’t write here anymore, and I’m sleepy. Even if I write here, my heart is already full of blood and I won’t write anymore.

Because I am so sleepy, I hope I have a good dream today.

———————Li Qi, this diary was written since late at night on the eighth day.
Chapter completed!